Sunday, June 12, 2011

Sitting Alone, Thinking About Companionship!


My friends have always complained that I think too much. It can't be helped, thoughts consume me! When I'm not introspecting, I'm wondering about other people, their behaviour, what motivates them to act the way they do...


Is that why I've always been comfortable being alone? I have never felt lonely. To me, solitude equals solace.

In the past few weeks, however, my thoughts have largely hovered around companionship. I'll squarely blame my friends for this! All of a sudden, they seem to be marrying or at least getting engaged. Now how is that supposed to make a single girl feel?

Like a pendulum, I fluctuate.

While I feel relieved for still having many years ahead of me that are mine, I also crave someone who I can chew off in times of need. (Statement open to all forms of interpretation!).

But, it's only natural. Remember how as kids we were taught that human beings are "social animals"? We just aren't meant to live alone. Unlike tigers, who only mingle with their kind in the mating season, humans find it absolutely comforting to be surrounded by loving, caring friends and family. Now, I do have all of that, but the I need more; and I'm pretty sure when I do have more, I'll wish for something else!

Help!

20 comments:

  1. I can relate to everything you said here! and I'm not a Sagittarian! :P
    But like you said its only when everyone around you suddenly is a part of a couple.. I felt like this a couple of years back when I was single for the first time in ages!:P But then I am so over it now.. I got into a relationship and out again.. and I got a much happier person.. I don't know if its a good thing or a bad one.. but I just don't feel it anymore.. :)Its so easy just being around myself and no other person could do it.. maybe.. other than family of course.. and some friends MAY BE. :P

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  2. it happens with everyone i guess. the whole "grass is greener on the other side".. i just keep reminding myself that i should be happy with whatever i have, because tomorrow when i have what i want i'll need something else! it's good in a way, you must never get complacent.

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  3. i am always lost in thoughts too.. i cant shut my mind..i keep speaking abt something in my head n its actully nice.. n may be thats y even i like being alone..i feel lonely sometimes though..but its nice..:)

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  4. hi anubad,
    most people i know are scared and insecure... of themselves! they cannot sit alone for even a few minutes. my mother's friend is so unhappy when her husband and kids are away that she leaves her tv on 24/7, just so she feels there is someone with her!
    i personally think it's better to sit peacefully with yourself instead of having dunderheads for company! but yes, it does get a liiitle lonely, thankfully only sometime!

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  6. bhumika, i've noticed time and again that we're both quite similar. and now what's this! you're a sagittarian too! i don't believe in astrology and other such things, but somehow i feel very closely associated to my sun sign. :)
    i've also noticed that you seem a little low these days. cheer up! when we're in the pits, we tend to feel that no one cares and we're all alone, but we need to stop acting like ostriches and get our heads out of the ground. there are countless people around who DO love us and care about us. we just need to stop distancing ourselves from them. :) lots of love to you, hope you feel better!

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  7. so true...I always distance myself somehow from ppl who love me..we both r actually very similar..thanks a ton..bt I am totally going up n down like a roller coaster ride..actually just try to divert my mind in other things to try to keep myself happy n going..but sometimes I feel..is this going to make me happy..n for how long..coz I know at the back of my mind..that I need something else for my happiness..!

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  8. i can associate with what you're saying. the best way to deal with it is to be happy with the present. and keep reminding yourself that whatever comes in the future will give you scope for different forms of happiness. :)

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  9. had to delete d comment..I hope its ok..
    thanks a ton :)
    trying to be happy :)

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  10. hey it's perfectly ok, take care! :D

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  11. Hey! I do that - leave the Tv on when I am alone - but that's only when I am on tour.. I hate staying alone in lonely hotels in even more deserted towns close to factories - so I leave the TV on & on mute for company..

    As long as I can remember I always wanted a companion. I didn't like being single much tbh; I never was enamored by the thought of being married (am still not :P); I loved & still love being around people, and spending time with my hubby is generally the favorite part of my day :D.. I guess I was in love with the concept of being in love / having a crush on someone :D

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  12. the tv also gives a sense of movement and keeps restlessness at bay, in a way! i like putting on some music, otherwise i prefer reading. :)
    you're lucky to be such a romantic! :D

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  13. Nice post.

    I am feeling the same way.. My friend's have started getting married and or engaged too.

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  14. oyee.. u posted after a long time didnt you. Happy blogging girl. love your blog!

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  15. yes, long time. i have another one in the pipeline :)

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  16. you had someone who cares and who loves you more than any one in this world and his love grows exponentially with every passing day. you had everything in this world. all he wanted was your companionship and he could have easily sailed the boat out of any appalling situation. U urself knw how hard working he is still i dunno y u did this and hurt tht person so much. toking of sitting like ostriches with head inside the ground. yeah you are coz you just did wot you have wrote above. coz you always want best rather than working out to make it better. in the end it results in losing tht precious person in your life. and now u knw who m i. god bless u and gives u wot u were looking for,,,,,

    p.s. : i was not angry while writing this

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  17. sorry i have no clue who you are. maybe next time you could double your courage and put in your name as well.

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  18. dont say tht u dont know who i am. i am inder n u knw it very well and i had courage to put my name too. bus waise he nhi kiya

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  19. sounded nothing like you so i thought it's one of your friends. god bless you too, bye.

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Please dont mince your words!